I am so glad that I got a chance to talk to R about the situation. She definitely put me at ease with the whole situation. Now, I'm not so freaked out about making sure that I don't do anything wrong. I know that when I talk to him, I definitely need to just come straight out with him about the fact that I'm not experienced (though I'm sure he's more than aware of that), but that I am hoping to grow sexually with him guiding me. After all, I'm not completely insipid when it comes to sex, but I feel like there was more that could've gone on that night in terms of mutual pleasure. I'm just going to chill out.

I'm so excited for my new piece. It's slow coming, but I like what it is evolving into. My only apprehension is that I don't want to present it to the people in the workshop while it's in progress. It's a very personal piece, and I feel like I need to be in a setting where I can truly be in a vulnerable place.